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                              Yep still 178. These 70’s will NOT BUDGE!!!!  So sadly no loss to report. As you have seen I was trying to really hard at the start of the month, I started working out every single day to boost my metabolism, I even bought fiber tablets to attempt to curb hunger but it wasn’t working. I was irratable & hungry, trying to super manage my calories and fat intake ….The scale would not budge day after day after day after day…. it was very discouraging.. I fell off track bout 2 weeks ago.. I started cheating on the diet and then eating junk food.. I never really over did it , I didn’t go and eat like a whole box of donuts or anything silly but I did find myself having a burger here and there with fries, some ice cream , pizza , fried chicken  , regular coke ( my fav!) vs diet , some doenuts.. etc…. I did not gain weight tho ( ISNT IT ODD?? )

So thats my report for last month. Here we are a new month. I am now at 30 pounds behind original overall goals ( 10 lbs per month golas )  so 40-50 pounds left to go.. what should have taken me about a year to loose or so continually is extended. I am grateful for where I have gotten but I am still fat , I still cant shop at regular stores or the mall for clothes. I still look in the mirror in disgust. I still feel heavy/fat. I dont look good in shorts, cant wear tank tops or fitted tops…I still have the big belly and back rolls ( I hate those! ) I have a long long ways to go. I am about a size 16 , sometimes its tight and sometimes I can squeeze in to 15, depends on the brands…I wear 2x tshirts now instead of 3x( cant stand them tight ). Regular tops/blouses I wear like a size 14/16 also. Yep-still fat.

 History: For 1st time readers , I started my diet November 30th 2008, I started at 236 pounds. I have lost 58 pounds total. Thats 9 months now , I should have lost like 90 pounds by loosing 10lbs a month ( was the goal and how it started )  but I am instead actually at 6.5 pounds a month average loss now. THIS NEEDS TO GO UP!

It has become routine , my body has adjusted and lives just fine off 1200 cal a day , it doesnt even notice and I cant (and shouldnt ) eat less than that but I cant get my weightloss to kick back in. I really dont know what else to do..So I am starting again fresh this month.. Wish me luck and I hope all have better news than mine.